LDR

fuck Long Distance Relationships. there's something about kilometres and miles that just fucks a relationship up in a way that no other thing can. your doubts, worries, suspicions, and overall negative vibes just increase tenfold when you're far away from each other. my first real relationship broke down EXACTLY because of distance. but it wasn't painful because she was a bitch anyway. now it's threatening to throw another one down the drain. the only problem is, I DON'T WANT TO LOSE THIS ONE. i will be the first to plead guilty to all the negativity surrounding myself, but in my defence, i believe i have handled it with as much maturity and level-headedness as i could muster.

the whole idea of being together is to share whatever you think is worth sharing between the both of you. distance takes away a BIG motherfuckin chunk out of that. so all that you have left are technology's wonderful gifts of communication, and a WHOLE lot of motherfuckin TRUST. trust that you're honest to each other. trust that you're going to survive the distance. trust that you trust each other and your own selves to make it work. but negativity spreads out through your soul like a poison coursing through a condemned man's veins on death row. one fine day it'll just blow up in your face like the condemned of old who had to sit on the electric chair(sorry, i'm thinking green mile as i type this).

i'm going to fight this with all i've got. this relationship is too MUCH young to be written off just like that. and i don't see it in myself to let it go AT ALL. my sayang ain't my enemy, the blithering thing called DISTANCE is. it's OUR enemy. and we face it TOGETHER. not by fighting each other while it laughs at us like we're on celebrity deathmatch. no, i REFUSE to let distance come in the way of this. i REFUSE to give in to the destructive narcotics of negativity. i absolutely REFUSE to entertain the possibility of us ending. if you're thinking i'm desperate, dramatic, and off my rocker, fuck you. you're not the one in love with her. I AM.

We can fuss and we can fight, as long as everything's all right between us, before we go to sleep. -NeYo.